Chalet

haiz... i realli duno wat to sae about TPGE chalet... shld i sae good or bad...

i think the onli few ones realli helping out are Leon, Marcus, Sharu n mi... we r the ones buying the foods... preparing the food... n bring the stuff over to chalet... Zzzzz.... tiring sia... i think leon is the worst... his backpack must have weight 20 kg... (he stuff all the can food into his bag...) not to mention my bag too... argh... i still haf to go back to bishan to get my hennsey... haiz...

then the worst thing happen.... when we reach the chalet... unpacked the stuffs... mi n marcus even chose which room to sleep... (heee... decided all main comm to sleep in the master bedroom... coz marc sae the fengshui there is the best... lol...) anyway... we even mopped the floor, make the ice, n on the air-con... then it happened... there were actually 2 pple holding the same permit to the same chalet on the same day... wtf... in the end when the officer came over... he kept saying that we are the ones that shld moved out coz the other pple are the rightful pple to stay... shit them... we haf the permit oso wad... n he was damn rude loh... juz c tat we r young then bully us ar... scare u ah... &!$&@^#.....

then lata... another senior office came dwn to re-confirm... he said that leon's mother application was cancel... coz of duno what payment prob... -.-Zzzzz.... in the end... no choice... we had to move to 2 miserable holiday flats... haiz.. tot eveything over le... then another thing happened... which means mi, marc n leon super mad... as of wad... i think i will not mention yet... but.... grrrr... &%&#%^%&%$....

duno y.. i felt that this chalet was a real cock-up... haiz.. tot of enjoying in the chalet... coz this is so nan de that my mum will let mi stay over nite.. but wtf... Zzzz.... like what glenn said... my disappointment to this chalet was greater when i had a big hope to enjoy... haiz haiz... oya... played mahjong for 2 nites... lost $$... sianz...

then when i came back hm... more sianz... my bloody com cannot access to the internet when i haf the connection... kaoz... realli fuck up sia... duno wads wrong.. kanna hacked? kanna virus? haiz... heck care liao... now using his pc to blog... but sianz... no com to use at hm... i mean haf lah... but cannot go online... haiz...

so many things~~

ok... alot alot of things happened this week... lets start wif mon...

18th Oct
bought the wallet... went out wif weiling (glenn's 1st wife... hahah...)... finally... went to GE... haha... had some shooting to do... keke....

19th Oct
went out wif ah bren n gie... to P.S... bren sae wan to buy things... in the end... din buy... i bought one pink pig box to put all his stuffs.... jeans... wallet.... haha...

20th Oct
GE main comm meeting... zzzz..... then went to TM walk walk wif marc.... bought a pair of earrings... but... *sob sob*.... at nite hor... when i reach hm... i wan to try... took out my left stick... got a bit of pus... so i squeeze out loh... then i was thinking... since i do for my left ear... might as well i settle my rite ear... then after i squeeze of my pus... i cannot put back my rite ear stick... argh... when i finally put in... i suddenly feel dizzy sia... then my rite ear... was abit like... u noe... got water inside my ear... hollow hollow one... then i feel my ear abit... look at mirror... saw sth cuming out of my ear... at 1st i tot is my stick cum out liao... but... after i put abit... pain... i stop... got blood... then the "stick" is soft soft one... it turned frm white to purple... i think is vein... *wahhhhh*.... then i die die forced the vein back into my ear wif a new stick... *pain!~!~*

21th Oct
morning wake up... ear still freaking pain.... then had badminton session wif leon, bl, ns, jem n jw... oya sharu came by n played awhile... shiok sia... haha... played frm 1 to 5 pm... whole body wan to break liao... oya... ns passed mi the absolut vanilla... he helped mi ask his parents to buy for mi @ DFS.... hee... thanx ns... then GE2 session... taught spanish dance....

22nd Oct
i had actualli booked places at the Ricetable yest.. but... grrr... they called mi n tell that they made a mistake... sat's was fully booked... nb... mailto:%$!@%@!.... no choice... i oso dun wan to waste time scolding them... i faster went to think how... eat where... looking through at my notebook... heng i got write dwn all the restaurant i tot of for these past 2 weeks... then set on Marche... but cannot book... coz its weekends... called n asked leon to go dwn abit earlier to que for seats... leon... thanx man...

then went out wif bren... so long never c her liao sia... pei her go to town to get her levis jeans... then saw some makeup stuff... supposed to meet another bren at 3 pm to do my eyebrowns... but she din cum coz raining... so... haiz... might as well lah... trim my browns at invuovi... when i reached hm... then i realised... my eyebrowns is not balanced one... one up one dwn... zzz...

23rd Oct
the day had arrived... lol... i got up abit early... iron my clothes... wore a white t-shirt n skirt.. (ya... i wear skirt ok... =p)... put make up... settle my hair... see time still early... find leon pai gb... haha... then went to pasir ris to fetch him... hee... i think he was abit suprised to c mi... in skirt... lol...

then went to his hse... put things... bath... eat... change... left for suntec... keke... on our way there... my fone kept ringing sia... then got alot of pple called mi... haiz... the surprise is kinda given away... but... i think he still like it ba... hee.. ^.^... gif him all his presents cum serene's shirts... hee... =)... oya... plus a disc... we recorded a msg for him... ^.^v....

then he got his annual facial treatment... haha... then after he clean up... we went to fusion for a drink... they actually sae wan to go tim's hse to stayover nite one... but i have to go hm... then everyone was kinda tired... so all go hm... haha...

24th Oct
he sae he will b at place at 11 to 12pm... i sae he sure will reach my hse at 1 to 2pm... haha... i was right on the dot... lol... he reached at 1.30pm... hahahaah.... he bought the absolut vanilla... hee... after 5 shots... i'm flat... i m serious... i realli k.o... when my grandma cums hm... i duno... when he went back... i duno... when my grandma went hm... i duno... when my mum cums hm... i oso dun noe... hahaha...

when i wake up... head realli spins sia... *pain pain pain* dear... i swear... i will not take ur drink liao... realli... -.-zzzzz..... haha... then i got a sudden craving for fried rice... haha... i msg him... he was like o.O?? lol...

25th Oct
went out bren again... to novena sq... look at make up again... then she went to looked for job... success... =)... went to town... i bought perfume.... hee... miniture one... wee....Ralph Lauren Glamourous.... but i still like the morgan white one...

chionged dwn to tampines for GE... on my way there... glenn called... he want to thank all the pple for his b-dae... haha... then gasper farnie sia...

glenn sae "i love gasper... u r one of the best guitarist i noe..."
gasper said... "too bad u not gal..."
whahahaha....

finished Teenage years... started on Doramon... Zzz.... very difficult sia... then went makan... yay... got to eat my fried rice...

then jess not feeling well... so send her hm... then die... on the way frm ECP to TPE... marc missed the exit... we headed str8 to city.... -_-... i saw the suntec sity... carrefour... omg... mum called sia... time was 2035 hrs... die... cannot speed oso... coz got alot of cameras... in the end he speed... juz to get mi hm... marc... thanx... reached hm... 2105hrs... i haven even step in the hse... i can hear my mum's voice liao... -.-zzz....

finally i can go for the chalet... haiz... but my mum juz kao beh non-stop sia... machaim MCT loop program... haiz... k lah... long blog... slp liao loh... going to buy the stuff for chalet 2molo....

hmm... to end... dear~~ happy 21st b-dae to u... i noe u got range on ur b-dae... but... no choice... army wad... haha... happy b-dae loh... love u always....

Mac b-dae bash...

ok... NOT my b-dae bash... its my 2 cuzs... =) a joint b-dae bash for the 2 gals... can i sae something? i will not... will not send my daughter (if i haf one in the future) to a all gals sch... never... 2 of my cuzs studying in marymount convent... ya... all gals sch... can u imagine... 30 pluz gals gathered at one place and scream.... omg... i almost went deaf sia...

saw matthew... at mac... so long never c him le... kinda miss him... changed so much sia... saw 2 tattoos on him... haiz... si ah beng... still like to call my nickname... even infront of my mum... oya... not to mention he was smoking n drinking beer at one in the afternoon... hmm...

my uncle's wife's nephew, aloy, came dwn today wif his fren... yaya... girlfriend... hmm.. he taste for girls are getting weirder and weirder... coz... ... this gal is... erh... not thin... and had purple nails... eekk... hmm... he's in army now... i think he juz finished his BMT... blah blah blah... hmm.. we don tok much liao... ever since tat time... always juz a hi bye.... haiz...

went shopping for sunglasses wif my 2 aunts.... wah kao... the 2 of them hor... is realli... ... ... ... the 2 of them went to gucci, LV, CD... i c the price... i faint liao... after walking the whole of orchard.. she... no.. the both of them... settle at this CD boutique... and bought 2 pairs of sunglasses... looks nice.... n the price is even nicer... one is $325... one is $350... together... $675... oya... not to mention pluz GST n other stuff... *faint*

looking at dear's fotos... tat reminds mi that he gel his hair... i think he very long time neber gel liao... looks good... ^-^... was thinking to compel all his past foto together... n mayb make a video chip out of it... after 2molo's "shoot"... finally can mention on my blog le... coz he got read... so cannot write... *secret secret*... haha... 21st b-dae wor... muz make it memorible... =)

Am i transparent??

met up wif chris today... so long neber c her liao... hope her will b back in ge soon... ;)

was on my way to pasir ris to meet dear today... something very weird happened sia... when i board on bus 27... i tot i saw billy sitting in front of the bus... i kept staring at him... but he juz looked away... hmm?? then i was like... "ok.. nvm... mayb wrong guy.." but the more i look at him... the more i think its billy.. argh...

next... was entering white sand when i saw joanne... wanted to say hi.. but she juz walked off wif her frens... hmm??

then i went up to comic connections... grab a comic... sat outside the bench there... saw derong... wif his gf wor... but!!!! again... din see mi... kaoz... so pek cek this time.. called derong n scold him... "oie... dao ah..." i transparent meh... lol...

had dinner wif glenn at swensens... ok.. nt i had dinner... he had... wasn't hungry.. so i ordered an ice-creams... but i lata regret sia... damn sweet... starting 1st few mouth still ok.. but... the most i eat the more eukkk... worst was... he fed mi fried fish... then mi mouth was like... very sweet.. and salty... haha... funny sia...

finally... both of us can hold hands when he booked out... :p... coz he's not wearing his uniform but cilivian's clothes... hehe... ^.^

>*Reflection*<

hmm.. went to kbox yest wif leon n marc...was quite funni... coz leon kept choosing those old old old old songs to sing.. haha... overall i enjoyed the singing session... realli very long time din sing until so happy le... after kbox... went to bugis to walk walk... waste some time...

had 2nd meeting wif sharu today... not bad... went on quite well... no arguements... *world peace* haha... finally settled the design on the GE t-shirt... shiok...

dear hurted his left shoulder 2dae... hmm.. *sayang sayang... blow blow nt pain liao*... ^.^... was abit surprised when he msg mi n tell mi tat he injured nw on his way to the medical center... was actually very worried abt his shoulder... but when he told mi that he got muscle strain... heng... not muscle tear... phew... =)

found out sth recently... there is nt much to tok abt between him n mi le... =(... duno y... every nite... i'm waiting for his call... but when he called everynite... there juz isn't much to sae anymore... i think he oso realised this ba... coz both of us sounded very sianz when toking... both of us kept saying sianz oso... realli cannot find a topic to tok abt.. or even if i found one... he sounded nt interested... so... haiz.. forget it lah.. guess mayb SISPEC is realli boring for him... lecture everyday... n mayb becoz of mi oso... since my "grounded" issue... haiz... to hell wif it.. both of us din realli tok le... as in... a heart to heart tok... we are nt toking like wad we used to tok to one another... is honeymoon period over?... once over... everything will change ma? even the way we treat one another? tok? hmmm... fan ah.... *bang wall*

sleepy

hmm... saw him last nite... wif tat cock hair style... wahaha... ok lah... nt realli tat bad... mayb i'm juz nt used to it... :x... went over to his hse for dinner... then cum hm liao... this time... i'm on time... phew~...

so bored last nite... no nice show... so... i pai gunbound again... haha... wanted to play maple at 1st... but until now i still duno y i cannot play... grrrr... anyway... quite shiok last nite... kill leon a couple of times... woo hoo... slept late.. almost 3am i think...

woke up late this morning... i juz can't get my ass up and walk to the toliet to wash up... -.-... but... my grandma wan to buy things... so... i practically dragged myself out of my bed...

hmm... he got a mitsubishi fone todae... after a long long long long long research last nite.... finally... he got a singtel line... so he wun grumble any more abt having to climb to the 6th floor for reception... =)

Fish n Co

reached douby ghaut early... damn early... ard 5.26pm... haiz... went PS walk walk... met up wif ser n nick then went over to glasshse...fish n co... intended not to eat... in the end... i was kinda forced to eat... coz serene took my one n onli 10 bucks... so... as wad glenn always say... lan lan suck thumb... ate fish n chip... argh... so full...

not many pple came... 12 pple in all.. onli 6 GE2s came.. the rest is marc, leon, sharu, serene, nick n moi~ hmm... was realli fun... we realli tok rubbish all the way... lolx... lame joke lame jokes... :D... all finish makan... took a real long time to split n pay the bills... haiz... after that took a group foto... then i zhao liao... wahhhh... :'(... how... i no $$ liao... anyone wan to gimmi $$?? i m going to b so poor this month... can eat air liao... hmm.. tats actually wad i did today... coz the fish n chips was my 1st meal of the day... ^.^v...

have to meet him 2molo for dinner... wonder how to stay out late sia... or at least until 9pm... haiz.....

another day~

hmmm... well... he called last nite... after playing MIA wif mi on monday... he ask mi if i missed him... well even if i do.. i cannot do anything wad... he dun wan to tok to mi... i oso duno wad to sae to him... until he said he realli missed mi alot... i guessed my heart kinda soften ba... ^-^...

meeting marc, leon they all for dinner at fish n co on fri... but i still haf not much $$... so... i guess mayb i juz go there sit sit tok tok ba... after which i haf to been back hm by 2100hrs... cannot to b late this time...

another day of rotting... went to sch to meet biling to get some shows frm her... n pass jiwen my calculator... kiasu... i took 2 calculator (casio n sharp) for him to choose which one he wans... in the end he took both of them... kaoz...

anyway... all the best to all those who are having exams now ba... especially sharu... i noe he's under alot of stress this sem... =)...

2305hrs

hmm... well... its 2305 hrs.. he still din called... or msg mi... so... wtf... i wun go n call him... or sms him... going to slp now... n i realli mean slp... y muz i make my life difficult... if he dun call msg mi... fine... i can live wif tat... nites~~

Everytime

was listening to this song now... seems adaptive to how i feel rite now...

BRITNEY SPEARS
=Everytime=

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

it juz never came...

was wide awake last nite... mum came it n rattle on how late already... still dun wan to slp... i've no more energy to argue with her anymore... so i off my com, tv, lights... laid dwn awake on my bed... but somehow... i still fell aslp... i guess i cried too much le ba...

i think he's in pasir ris now... waiting for fast craft... no he din call mi... neither did he msg mi... was reading his blog juz now... duno y... a sense of hopelessness juz came to mi... i cannot feel that he care for mi anymore... or will b there for mi anymore... i guess my mum was too much for him to handle... everytime my fone rang... let it b a fone call or msg... my heart will tells mi... ok... it might b him... but every single time... my heart will sank... its not him...

thinking abt wad marcus n bz told mi last nite... let urself b calm 1st... let him think thru in camp 1st... dun make a decision so fast... thanz guys... =]... i noe i can find real frens to tok to... will try not to cry so much... i guess when my tears runs dry... i oso can't cry anymore....

Lost..

feeling very upset now... tried to tok to him... but it seems he juz din wan to tok to mi... at all... fine.. so b it... went i told him to rest early... for he will b having a long dae 2molo... n his reply was... short dae long dae used to it... wad kind of reply is tat? i'm juz trying to show him my concern coz he is going back to tekong for his day one in camp... am i wrong... did i sae or do anything wrong...

i'm sorry ok... sorry for having a mum who is such a nuisance... sorry for have to follow a curfew... sorry for everything.. ok... after all tat i've tried juz now... he juz dun wan to tok to mi... i tot tat mayb i can meet gie n bren lata 2molo so i can mayb meet him for breakfast b4 he go for camp... now.. tat he ended the conversion in such an way... i guess not... even i wan to c him...

in any case... i'm not going for the sentosa trip 2molo... got not mood anyway... bren, gie... really sry... i duno wad happen between mi n him... never cried so much in one day b4.. broke record i guess...

>Grounded<

as wad the title saes... i got grounded last nite... reason... i'm home late frm the agreed time... so i'm in a very very lousy mood now...

went to makan wif him n his fren at marina south last nite... supposed shld reach hm by 9pm.. in the end i reached hm at 10pm... the moment i step in the hse... my mum started to make a din... result: grounded... feeling: bad mood...

when he asked mi hows my mum... i told him everything... but its seems he still dun understands my situation... my situation of y i'm grounded... called him to tok on the fone.... he dun tok... juz kept quiet... really felt fed up... could nt slp the whole nite.... thinkin abt all the things tat happen between him n mi.... can i still take it... can this relationship go on... can... definitely can... i love him... i can do it one...

but wad happen this morning realli makes mi think again... he wanted to eat lunch wif mi outside... i've got no $$ n i'm grounded... so i said no... den he come n argue wif mi again... the thing is i dun wan to get into more trouble... i dun wan to tok to my mum... who wun wan to tok to ur parents when they grounded u.... i dun wan to quarrel wif my mum again... whether on the fone or at nite when she cums hm... enuff already loh... but i duno wad had make him to becum so unreasonable... cant he stand in my shoe n think for mi.... y cant he do tat.... i realli duno how to communicate wif him anymore... is it becoz of army tat coz him to be this way...

called n tok to baozhu... sometimes its realli great to haf a best fren who fully understand ur situation w/o having to sae much... she told mi to think abt it... wad makes mi start this relationship... wad mi heart saes... well.. i duno... i realli duno... but i hope to overcome all this problems wif him... n i need time... 2 more years to 21 years old.... 2 more years is all i need...

hoi|day t|me~

alot of weird things happened these few daes... shall not mention here... let the past b passed... (if i can... lolx...)

sooooo happy todae... wan to noe y?? coz no more sch until December 6th.... wee-u-wee... XD... finished my report yest... printed out todae... hand up... shiok ah... feels like a big burden lighten dwn... ^-^...

glenn got his posting le... kanna posted to Sispec... lolx... its 10 weeks back to tekong... how i feel?... ok loh... he was in tekong for 16 weeks b4... juz another 10 weeks... ok lah... i can one... np.. =)... althought still hope that he can get an 8 to 5 vocation lah... but how... no choice...

going to sentosa next mon wif gie n bren... going to roast myself again... now skin started to peel liao... but... wad the heck... i muz b as black as glenn... otherwise... machaim like the two ghost in hell... ( u noe.. the black n white ghost... wif long long tongue one...) :x... hehe...